In this life… field of loneliness, am traveling alone…
I used to write poems and rhyme words to end up making a beautiful story for everyone to read, but now words are flowing faster than you can imagine, because this time it is about me, about how I feel, about what I am expecting and what I am rejecting!
Last night while Christmas shopping in a mall, I saw everyone smiling, happy and enthusiastic buying gifts for their sisters, brothers, parents , babies, friends, lovers, I was alone… despite all the crowd and noise around, I couldn’t hear but silence… it was like a muted movie playing with just gestures, facial expressions and bodies in motion… nothing to hear, nothing to understand but just one thing to feel… The emptiness inside!
Yeah am saying this… loneliness, that was what I felt and still feeling… not shy to declare what I feel and not asking for pity… am strong enough to go through all this… been within more complicated situations and was out of them with my head up…
Since this is a season where we are allowed to wish for something… am not going to wish something for me… I am going to wish for everyone whom I care about, Heath, Wealth and Happiness and i will hope that some of these people just wish me the same!
Happiness seems to be Loneliness… But not for ME!